I'm just useless...

I'm just useless... because i cant even guess or analyse what my gf was thinking...

i'm trying to hard to figure it out.. but i jus couldn't get it.. 

things that it seems easy for me but become complicated at the end... 

in the end.. i'm just useless..

Diarrhea

I'm Not sure what excatly i ate or what i did last night and i got diarrhea. In the middle of the night, my stomach started don't feel well, is like something  penetrating n rolling in my intestine. So that's when i started to sit on the toilet bowl in the Early morning 4am. After finished i slept back and guess what, same thing happened again, in the EARLY MORNING 6am. Same process, sit down there n let everything come out. ( I know it sounds very disgusting but cant be help) that's how a person with diarrhea sounds like D:

The next morning, due to insufficient sleeping hours, i overslept n was late for class, i rushed there without even a proper brush up, so u can imagine how fast am i by finishing up for class in 5 min. After reaching the class, i thought everything will be fine. Just right after i sat down, here it comes again..... my stomach... its started to ache again. I felt so frustrated with this issue.. what i can do is just sit down there, hold on to my stomach n bare with it. At least, my lecture saw my condition later on n gave me to permission to go back earlier and just right after i came back, i went into the toilet n go through the same "Process" again, so here i am, after finish eating my medicine n my brunch and start sitting in front of my computer n telling the world wad happened with me the whole morning.

This is the medicine i took just now (Ultracarbon Charcol), If anyone of u having Diarrhea can try this medicine and it's very effective!

Cycle Exam

Is getting nearer nearer to my Cycle Exams(Operative Surgery), day by day. its counting down... U all might not know wad is cycle exams, allow me to explain, in Russia, we study 6 years for medical course, so during the 1st 2 years we have class base system, which mean everyday we got classes for different kinds of subjects. but from 3rd years onwards, we run the class by cycle base system, which mean we will only have 1 subs in a period of time for at least 5days and maximum can go up to 1 month. So, every cycle finish we change subject n so on until the end of the semester.This time, i'm having a Cycle exams in a few weeks time which only apply only to some certain subject and when we finish the cycle, we will have exams for that subject.

Operative Surgery is aint an easy subject, it comprised on the topography of the human anatomy, although i already finish my anatomy exams during my 2nd year, this time is a more "detail" version of human anatomy, from the head to the toe we have to master. Is actually a interesting subject but it's a lot to study n is very tiring. What to do, this is a life of a medical student. I have to accept the fact that i'm graduating soon n i've to master wad i should master, because in the future, we doctors will be dealing with human's life.

So,  wish all my friends all the best for their exams and also for myself, i've to really be more discipline. You should victor, stay strong n face it!

Another Stage of Life

Its been awhile from the last post which is almost 2 years ago. This 2 years i've learned a lot, my friends, my family, and also people around me. The main point is i appreciate them a lot for giving me a lot of golden experience and knowledge which i cant learn from my textbooks. Really thanks a lot to all of u which think u are one part of my life.

Y am i saying is another stage of my life, is because i'm back together with her after 3 years time and this time i gonna tel myself tat no matter what i will never let her go anymore til the end of my life is because we people sometimes just don't see how important is he/she in our life n especially my life and i finally realised that. I regretted for wad i did which hurts her a lot n gave her all kinds of phobia. i'm sorry.. I'm just so sorry... but i will treat u better in the future n try my very best to make u happy and i want u to be in my life which play a important role.

Another thing is, after 2 years plus of whining, finally i settle down myself on where i'm standing now. I'm a 4th year medical student now and in 2 and a half years time i'm gonna graduate n leave Russia. Times just flies when we enjoy ourself n i jus dun realise it passed so fast. It was like everything just happened last week. One thing which doesn't really change on me is, i'm still the happy go lucky guy. For me, i dun really put a lot of effort on my studies or try to get the top result or trying to compare to other people, this is because for me, 1 doctor, is not about the marks u get but is about the attitude u have. Even i'm a "doctor" with full of knowledge in my brain, but my attitude is very bad, til the end i will just have to suffer up myself.

For now, tats all.... i'm not sure who is reading my blog.. but i jus think this is more privacy place for me to shout out myself. For those who read my blog again, thanks for having patient to read til the last because i know is kinda long here :> thanks again.

p/s: i will try to improve myself not to let u disappointed. <3

-victor-