Depressed..

Today, my 3rd class for internal medicine for this semester and we went to see a patient today. She had pneumonia with infiltrate almost 2 of her lungs, just left the right upper lobe was still in good condition in the X-ray examination. She had difficulty in breathing, weakness, low blood pressure, dry cough n so on.. is an atypical pneumonia she had. We try to ask some history from her n get some information from her but she seems like not very cooperating n kinda hard for her to talk. So we decided to let her rest n we walk back to our class. In our class, half way we discussing about our topic (Bronchial Asthma) n our teacher received a call and said that she had already passed away.

At that very moment, all of us stunted for like few second.. n we remain silent. Deep down, at that few minutes, i'm thinking that...many things can just happen in our life in the next few second. Although now we are still standing n talking happily, the next moment, we might be already in the Haven. Life is short n precious, we should always appreciate every single moment that we have now, with our frens, family, and the ppl who we love. Dont give up on someone we care and we love jus simply some quarrel or arguement because i think is really not worth it.. we might not know wad will happen in the future, but we must always make the present like the last moment we have.

After class, we went and see the other patient that we should be in charge in and we were surprised that another of our patient died again. Yesterday when we came and visit him, he was ok. Today, he passed away.. 2 of our patients died today, its really made me kinda depressed. i felt so helpless, as a future doctor, yet i duno wad i can do for them.. really really depressed, even my lunch was tasteless.. i know we cant avoid people to die because it's god decision, at least as a future doctor.. i wanna safe as many lives as i can.. May god guide me always.